Silent Mind ~ yan

CHOP CHOP CHOP!
My fil just came back from his 1 week fishing trip yesterday from sarawak kuching! Yesterday the fishy smell is all over the house…… Now he is cutting the SUPER big fishes to keep in the fridge…… omg the fishy smell is so unbearable……

I am feeling giddy now…… so sleepy I fall asleep just now…… So sleepy so tired…… is it just me?

darling darling, monday we go to work together,ok? We will learn something starting from monday…… I love you……

for you…… I will endure whatever coming my way……

Last night, I saw my bestfriend’s facebook – her sister-in-law has given birth to a baby girl!
So cute! So sweet! So adorable!
I am so happy for my bestfriend. And the other bestfriend is also going to be aunt soon…… as her sister-in-law is also expecting……
I feel blessed and I feel great! Because Life is BEAUTIFUL!

Today I “catch up” with my buddies via their blog…… It worries me to see both of them having trouble in life. But I know they will somehow walk through this downtime……

Recently my hubby care for me alot, he becomes very loving to me.
Maybe he know I am worry - the monday night that had just passed can be the scariest night in my 29 years of life. I experience pain at the right side of my stomache, a few times I was in such a pain that I cannot walk. I decided to go to the clinic downstairs, but the nurse told me that it is not NORMAL to have that kind of pain and even the clinic doctor  cannot do much. The 2 nurses told me to go to the hospital.
I walked out of the clinic, tears start to roll down my cheek. I dare not walk by the front to pass by the crowded coffee shop. I detour to the back through the garden where its darker so that noone can see the tears rolling down. I walk passed the carpark avoiding ppl’s eyesight. I am super worry!
I opened the door, my hubby was shocked to see me in tears and I told him what happen, all the while crying… he was very worry about me and changed immediately to bring me to hospital…

there he stay by my side…… after seeing the doctor…… we both were relieved to hear that everything is fine. I was then given 3 days MC to rest at home. I am not sure about others…… but I am having very bad backache, most of the times I feel so hot and today I had to bath 4 times! Yes, I eat at 11am…… soon at 12pm I am hungry again…… Then I will feel giddy and strenghtless. Tommorrow, I am going to see my personal doctor at the hosipital, my hubby had taken the day off to accompany me…… I really wish that everything will be very very smooth……

Coming week 5… still alot of issues to settle. Final revisions to sharpen their language skill to face the battle in 2 weeks time. This monday and Wednesday afternoon will be course/workshop time… so tiring… but on account that I am going to gain some new knowledge and experience, I will endure the torturing after-lunch temptation for nap…
Following will be many family mission, this say is my hubby’s ganny’s 95th Birthday party… And we will be going to help out early in the afternoon… and the next day – sunday, FIL is going to airport to go ku ching for sea-fishing the whole week… When he is back, we will also go to the airport to fetch him… In my life, I have 2 families… the family which I grew up – there is my darling parents whom I love very much… The family which I newly joined after marrying Mr Wan – there is his darling parents whom my hubby refer them as king and queen… Many times, their problem become my hubby’s problem which he had to run the errand for them… leaving no personal time for himself… sometimes he grumble… and he can… but nevermind, hee hee there is me to accompany him…
These are families’s life… And there is also work life… When can I have MINE life… heehee there is – when I sleep at night… good night!

Dear Teng Yen, Here is your horoscope for Saturday, October 10: You’re quite productive today, so keep pushing for something bigger and better! You can get more done than you would expect, especially as your mood might set you up for more thoughtful stuff.

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This is the town layout - the unit in circle is my dream home which is facing the water way currently under construction.

This is the level floor layout - the red path shows the way from the lift to my dream home!

This is the layout of my dream home - I had flip the picture to show exactly how it will look like thus the words are funny... but still it is so BEAUTIFUL!

Alot of things changes as life goes on… I never thought I would have a home of my own… and my father in law told my hubby that the master bedroom will be ours!!! I am so going to swensens!!! hahaha!

Although certain things in life are not as smooth as we wish it to be, but given the tough way, we learn to stand up whenever we fall. Some things are hard to achieved when we have desired to have it so much. I have to learn to let go… Only when I let go will I have peace of life…

Now given this dream home… I will strive towards my goal to have a beautiful home which I can call it mine! Saving is my first most important thing now to get the furniture and decor I want for a cosy home with my hubby and my in laws.

29th March is my darling mum birthday… On this day she was in a bad state when I brought my family out for a birthday dinner for her at jumbo. She was sicked for quite some time, therefore she taste nothing on her birthday. It worry me to see her like this… And then it started: on 10 April when my hubby was serving his reservice. I called home at about 11am thinking of going home to accompany my parents. What I heared was my brother’s crying: “Mum cannot breath” The next minute I was dressed and downstair hopped onto a cab…… All the while hiding my teary eyes and keeping in contact with my dad and brother. When I reached my parents’ house, the ambulance was about to leave, my dad inside and my brother coming down. I rushed to the ambulance told the driver the lady on the ambulance is my mum! ……
As my dad is already in the ambulance, my brother and I waited awhile for my cousin to come and go to A&E together. Soon, I saw my mum… pale face…… body shivering…… in a blurred state. From my dad and brother: her body cramped up, feet turned white, …… these was enough to make my brother cried. Luckily my mum was not admitted to the hospital, but was refer to cardiology and it is today.
After that day, we took great care to look after my mum. I was angry once when my mum was all alone at home, my dad went to buy some stuff downstairs and found out that my brother went out with his xx! I called to check on mum and she was feeling very sick and numbed! 
Work was then stressing, adding on more worries… finally it is my 29th birthday. That day I was having some headache with some work stuff and then I got a message from my brother. I called my dad hp and my mum answer weakly. They are at TTSH! The next moment I cried uncontrollably, – it all just felt like the world had collasped on me, real hard!
Then for the next few days I was buzzing in and out hospital taking care of my mum, taking care of my brother, at the same time wishing hard my dad can stay with me through this. My hubby was busy with reservice and his career and I do not want to bother him too much except having his listening ear.
Days passed, my brother was discharged. . . . . . Still I am going to face more coming challenges. Recently I learned something – It is not stress take it as a challenge.

I thinked 2009 April is the biggest challenge in my life for the pass 29 years.
I hope and wish for good health to all the people I love in my life. This way I will also be happy.

I says: It is unbelievable! I cannot say anything more about this web site’s prediction. I am now in a “blur” state after a long nap. I am running a fever, having the running nose, coughing at some moment, working under the condition of an itchy throat this morning. After which I requested to be excused from a workshop in the afternoon to see a doctor. My hubby was so understanding, cooked me a meal of porridge and bought me herbal tea which my family doctor advices me to drink more these two days. Even though I was given 2 days of MC, I am determined to report to work tomorrow – I cannot afford to be absent from work. Maybe that is what people says ” A calling”…

Finally, I am here blogging for the 1st time in year 2009!
It was a busy start at the beginning of 2009. Family and friends around me know what is happening. I am busy yes and 90% happy! The other 10% ( not to worry ) is tiredness and stress due to endless administrative work.
For the past 1 week and especially today, I received sms-es from 3 of my ex-students.

(1) She have not been doing well but in the recent CA she scored 80/100 A! I am very happy for her, she made great improvements after an important family member passed away. I think she grew matured and finally know her direction.

(2) He writes very untidy words when he was in P3, I spent alot of time with him that year. Now he improves and he sms me today to say that he got 91/100 A* !

 (3) She have been feeling stress over examinations. Today she sms me she got 86/100 A!

I taught all 3 of them a few years back when they were in P3, now they are in P6 and they still remembers me.
I am delighted and these keeps my passion going. For them I will continue this important mission!